I felt strong fear.
I considered my future for a while. It is not about my far future. It was consideration 
about not my far future but my near future so much.
However, the matter about my far future does not look good for me.
"God breath me!"
I have shouted so involuntarily. Although my shout sounded my empty room, in me, 
nothing generated it after that.
I am awfully powerless to me the place got blocked.
As for me, I knew well that it is very powerless to me.
I think of you. It disappears, if your smiling face appears on the reverse side of the 
eyelid by which I was closed.
I do not have influence at all to you as I do not have power at all about my own future.
It seems that I am doing love to you.
From when, I do not remember whether I love you.
You are considered to be in a place distant from me.
However, I cannot convey the words to you.
Finally, I have to stop thinking of me. It is because I am tired very much also about 
considering not only my thing but your thing.
Then, good-bye.
I am praying for the good future visiting to you who are reading this text.
Good night. and .... I love her





(2004-05-15)